The Other Side Of Me

This Blog is a documentation, a day-to-day account of my coming out process. This is here so people can read, and see where i've made mistakes and where i've made progress, so that during their coming out they can attempt to avoid or emulate those things. It is also here, to show the struggle me and many others have faced, when coming to terms with our sexuality.

10/07/2004

Black Jesus.

A few days back, almost a week I think, I bought a book and OUT magazine. I was in, Barnes & Noble, and I was going to check out. There was a guy working the cash register, and I was a little nervous; the other guy from the other Barnes & Noble looked a little gay, this guy didn’t. Well I went up and checked out, and he looked at what I was buying, and he didn’t say a thing the whole time he was ringing it up, except for the usual BS, Like if I had a members card and shit. Then he stated to joke around, he said that next time I was in there he’s going to ask me the same thing [if I wanted a members card, I said no before]. Then when he handed me my change, what he said next stunned me. “Have a nice day, and come back…. My Friend”. Not “My Friend” but “MY FRIEND”. Maybe its just because I’m crazy, but I think he was trying to tell me something. If he was just trying to be polite, he didn’t have to dramatize “My Friend”. Hell, who says “My Friend” anyways? Now he’s my Black Jesus, I was so nervous checking out, but he made me feel pretty damn good leaving. I call him Black Jesus, because when checking out the light hit him just right for a second, and he kinda looked like he could be a messiah; Oh and he was black, and pretty hot.

2 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm not gay, at least not very gay, but I always get the eye from male clerks in bookstores.

I think bookstores are seen as a 'safe' place by gay men.

10/07/2004 3:06 PM  
Blogger Brian Smith said...

No wonder they didn't have many coming out books at the bookstore; why read about it, when you can just ask the motherfucker next to you?

But i do feel comfortable in a bookstore, just for the mere fact that people that usually go there are educated; I just have to stay away from the Christian book section. And Barnes & Noble’s gay section is near the African American Studies section, and it weirds me out every time I look to my right and see 2Pac staring at me. I keep thinking that 2Pac is going to ‘bust a cap in my faggot ass, WESTSIDE!’.

And Welcome, Mister Underhill!

10/07/2004 8:57 PM  

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