The Other Side Of Me

This Blog is a documentation, a day-to-day account of my coming out process. This is here so people can read, and see where i've made mistakes and where i've made progress, so that during their coming out they can attempt to avoid or emulate those things. It is also here, to show the struggle me and many others have faced, when coming to terms with our sexuality.

10/18/2004

“I don’t think they should adopt”

again with the bullshit today, and he even knows I’m gay now. Ok one out of the 2 said it again, and this time I made a little spectacle. I was sitting waiting for next class to begin and a couple people that are in the same class (both the one before and the next one) came and sat down. So it was me and the two assholes and two other guys from my other classes. They talked about the test we just had, then they talked about the presentation we all have to do in the next class, I just sat there not saying anything, just listing. Since our presentations are over viruses, Trojans, or any other malicious software, the Patriot Act was brought up. Then one guy said, yea republicans; they hate homosexuals and love the Patriot act. Then they started talking a little about gay marriage, the two other guys said that they didn’t know about marriage, but civil unions should be allowed. And I can accept that. But then that asshole opened his god dammed mouth, and said ‘no I don’t want them to adopt, I don’t they should adopt.’ Then I leaned forward, looked right at him, and said, “THAT’S BULLSHIT!” Sorry I wish I said something a little classier, but I was kinda angry and stunned. Then he popped off something like, “we all know that your into all that gay crap or something” or something like that. Still dumbfounded, all I could muster was, “I can’t help who I am……. BITCH!”. I think I might of said Bitch a little loud, I at least got a couple people to look in my direction; I know I said “THAT’S BULLSHIT” loud and angrily, because I got a few, “is he going to go crazy” looks. Overall I’m happy, I had a very good weekend and that little episode just pissed me off for a moment or two, nothing big. I guess me actually vocalizing my support for my rights, in front of people I didn’t even know, and not thinking twice about it, made me feel a bit more proud of myself.

“I can’t help who I am, BITCH!”
~ Brian Smith

2 Comments:

Blogger Brian Smith said...

lol, him kick my ass? lol. OMG that's funny. Whew! haven't had that good of a laugh in years. He's tiny, and has no muscle mass at all. If it were still survival of the fittest, he would loose; he wouldn't even get a participation ribbon. It’s sad, but true; he has no way of defeating me without some special circumstances (i.e. I was already dead, or he had a gun).


Yea, maybe next time I will be calm enough to come up with something, but when he said it, and knew that I was gay, it kinda caught me off guard. And all I remember thinking the whole time he started to open his mouth, was, “that little fucker is going to say it”; I really don’t know why I was surprised when he did, because I thought that he was the whole time. “THAT’S BULLSHIT” is better then what I was going to say though, I was just going to scream obscenities at him; obscenities in no particular order. Example:
“FUCK YOU MOTHERFUCKER, BULLSHITTING MOTHERFUCKER, FUCK, MOTHERFUCKER, BITCH!”


Just randomly, pick words from this song and make your own possible quote.

10/19/2004 10:06 PM  
Blogger Brian Smith said...

Yea, it was KoRn, actually i haven't listened to that song since i was in high school. lol. I might have to drag my old 'Life is Peachy' CD and hope that i didn't scratch it too much over the years. But my favorite song off that album would have to be their single, A.D.I.D.A.S., because my mom heard that on the radio and was shocked, and they even changed Fucking to Humping. So my mom is clueless to the music i listened to, i think she'd freak at the crap i listen to now; but at least it isn't 'gangsta rap', like this little gem (which i acctually used in a school project, we had to violate mores, and i decided to play that song as loud as i could while ordering food at Long John Silvers, i was gangsta.... yea i got stared at.). I recomend reading only the last block of text, if you decide to read any of it, it sums the 'Song' up nicely.

10/19/2004 11:29 PM  

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