The Other Side Of Me

This Blog is a documentation, a day-to-day account of my coming out process. This is here so people can read, and see where i've made mistakes and where i've made progress, so that during their coming out they can attempt to avoid or emulate those things. It is also here, to show the struggle me and many others have faced, when coming to terms with our sexuality.

2/20/2005

GLBT CENTER: TOHR

Ok, i was at TOHR on Friday, as you already know. But there is some more stuff that i would like to add, that i didn't the first go around.

Ok, first off i wasn't the only newbe there. One of the lesbians was new to the game too. We talked a bit, and she was going to be a CS major too, but she switched to a sociology type field. Also the bi-chick was born the same day i was, different years, though. Well the guy that was there in the beginning was talking to the bi-chick, and they were talking about relationships; because the lesbians had a person in mind that he could go out with. So almost everyone was in the conv by then. We were talking about relationships. I learned that only the two guys that are getting married and the Lesbian and the Bi-Chick were the only ones there with a partner. So it was me, the guy, and the lesbian that were single. So we got advice.

First: Don't look. If you look for it, it will never come. Then make a list. List what you want in a man/woman, then fold it up, put it away, and forget about it. So i think i will make a list, WTF could it hurt, right?

List:

Someone Sweet.

Half Homebody.

Someone who will look after my best interest.

someone who would like to do the simple things like cook together.

Someone who isn't too busy with work.

Raising kids, isn't on there 'no way in hell' list.

Compassionate

non-smoker

non-boozer (social drinking is acceptable; Heavy Everyday drunk is not.)

Social (since i'm not very social, this would be great to counter my anit-social-ness.)

Share many of the same interests.

Someone with a nice family*

and someone who will make me feel like i'm extremely lucky that everything, throughout my life, turned out the way it did and made me who i am.


* = it use to be that I wouldn’t care if they were in or out of the closet, but that is slowly changing. I think, now, if staying in the closet was needed I would accept it (won’t be happy, but I would understand). But I wouldn’t if it is just to keep it a secret for the secret’s sake. Even now, I’m not fully out to my whole family, but if I did have someone, I loved I would be to proud to keep it secret from them.

1 Comments:

Blogger Brian Smith said...

I guess you can sum it up like this, the opposite of my older sister's BF. And what is creepy i know a few people that fit that list, even the guy you just heard about (<- the creepy part.). Too bad many of those people are straight. I guess i should add that to the list; gay.

So there is a quality...

So mean and hateful? Hay, that's just like my little sister! Like she told me (BTW, my older sister the one the little sister is pissed at is pregnant) that if she ever seen our older sister and she tried to talk to her, she would hit her in the head, because she isn't pregnant in the head. And that she can't hate the baby, but she will sure make fun of it. And something about she hopes the dad get drunk and kills himself (he's always drunk, so half-way there [seriously, always drunk; never have seen him sober or without a beer in hand]) or get arrested since he has so many DUI's he'll get major time.

And she loves to call our sister 'The Beast' and talks about her big ass all the time. and how 'that bitch is going to get so big, she's going to be hanging over her paternity pants, front, back, side to side.

I think it's funny, because my older sister is so dumb she should be made fun of; Oh there is also something about he got someone else knocked up too, or something.

Jerry! Jerry! Jerry!

Oh god, we're such white trash.

Oh and there was something about taking chocolate icing and smearing it all over her house and leaving a note about "this is hershey's chocolate".

Now do you REALLY want to throw those things away?Probably... ;-)

2/20/2005 7:35 PM  

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