I'm in one of those moods.

*Ignore below*

I was going good this year too... a whole month and not feeling like total shit. Well it's February now...

I don't know if it is the lack of sleep, being cooped up in this house, or just because there really isn't anything to do, but i'm kinda in a shitty mood. Or i can blame it on V-Day.

I haven't been getting much sleep, even as i type this i need to be getting to bed, but i'm wide awake. I've never been the type of person to sleep, without having too. I'll stay awake as long as i can.. but then it's almost impossible to wake me up. I like the dark more then the day, always have, because it's quite; and i get all my work done at night (i'll say it's because it's quite, but i know it's because i'm a procrastinator.)

I think everyone of my 'completed' WebPages and programs have been done between the hours of 11:00pm and 7:ooam. That was during summer, but now i have no time to do that.

Also being cooped up in this house sucks ass, and not in the good way. It's boring as fuck here, and i can't stand my parents. Thank god for school, but the weekends are killing me. My little sister, the only person here i can stand, leaves during the weekend to go stay at her BF's house, leaving me here. So it's just me and the folks, god i fucking hate the weekends. I'd do almost anything to get out of this house.

What i really would love is a house of my own, so i can go all DIY on it... but i'd probably get board with that and end up living in a shit hole, but a shit hole with a nice hardwood floors. I always wanted to make my own blueprints for a house and build off that, but most likely it would be a nightmare.

but really there is nothing to do around here... without a car i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere. Good thing i have school today, but only for an hour and a half... but then i have a 4 hour wait, so i can read a bit before coming home.

What i really need is a 4hr-a-week boy toy; one that will come to OSU-Tulsa and let me fondle him for 4 hours then leave till next week. OR a 24/7 boyfriend that I can fondle anytime...

We can all dream, can't we? Well maybe not me, since i'm NEVER GOING TO BE ABLE TO GO TO SLEEP.. Agggg!