The Other Side Of Me

This Blog is a documentation, a day-to-day account of my coming out process. This is here so people can read, and see where i've made mistakes and where i've made progress, so that during their coming out they can attempt to avoid or emulate those things. It is also here, to show the struggle me and many others have faced, when coming to terms with our sexuality.

1/23/2005

Latter Days... pt. 3

I just finished watching Latter Days... with my little sister.

Before that she asked what it was about. I told her to guess... because the cover has two guys on it with two quotes that have 'Romantic' in them, and it also says 'Aaron Prays, Christian Plays... Opposites Attract'; so i thought that she could figure it out. She did. Then she asked, "Does it show anything?" I told her not really. Then she said: "damn... i was going to see how they ‘work it’." Then i told her that i had some gay porn from Vegas.

But we ended up watching it, i had to zoom in to show her Christian's Penis flapping in the wind; she missed it the first time around. But we ended up talking about the people while it played, and guess what! She liked the dude that played Christian better then the guy that played Aaron! She also said that she 'didn't care for' Aaron's ass! WTF! We need to get the demons outta her!

I watched the Trevor Project PSA that is on the DVD that also has the guy that played Aaron on it. but on the PSA he had longer hair... tisk. tisk. He looks a lot better with short hair. If i was that hot with short hair and a shirt with a tie, i'd be sporting that shit 24hrs-a-day!

Anyways, she seemed stunned at the 'gay sex'. Especially the BJ at the beginning and the rimming. EXPECIALLY the rimming. She also didn't know that people were fucked up like Aaron's parents too. She didn't know about the torture chamb... ooops 'Places of healing'. She didn't even know that the church had that big of a bug up their asses either! Which raises a good question, "why did i think she could figure out what the movie was about, without directly telling her?"; some questions may never be answered.

4 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey Brian, you've got a great blog here! In fact my blog is about the exact same thing. I can't tell you how good it feels to see someone else accepting their sexuality. Keep blogging!

1/23/2005 11:41 PM  
Blogger Brian Smith said...

It's nice to see someone else doing the same thing! and i do intend to keep blogging, because i hope one day this blog can be of some use.

I hope it's my pin; when i went to Tulsa Community Collage, i seen a lesbian wearing a pride pin, and that got me to start my coming out process. I hope one day that people can read and see my life before and after i come out of the closet. How horrible i felt sometimes, but now things are looking up. or At least know that they are not alone.

and i know it is the little things that help a lot, like that small pin. While it may seemed like nothing to other people, but a flaunt; i seen that i wasn't alone and that it didn't mean the end of my life. I seen that i wasn't going to be assaulted everyday for being myself; so i told my first person soon after. I wish it was the lesbian, but it wasn't. I wish i knew her name or run into her somewhere so i can thank her. Maybe i'll run into her during the gay pride parade; i hope so.

but thanks again for commenting, and also blogging about your acceptance of your sexuality.

1/24/2005 9:30 AM  
Blogger Brian Smith said...

I get all my gay porn (now up to 3 mags) at Borders. I don't know why i buy them, i barely skim through them; but i guess i do it sortta to make sure that i'm still ok with being gay. Next time i need to go to the other borders or Barnes and noble 'cause they have them behind the cash register, the border i go to have them on the shelves. I think that will put some more nerviness in me, asking for them. "Hay miss... yea, can you grab me a copy of unzipped." i'm cringing just thinking about it.

I'm might be a prude... maybe. I have nothing to base it on, really i think i might be in the half way mark. Somewhere between prude and freak. I think if it's someone that i trust and feel 100% comfortable with, it will lean more in the freak direction. but until then it will lean toward the prude. I think i'm open to a lot of stuff, and i'm probably easily convinced to do that other stuff. I just have a few things that i will not do, under normal circumstances. Slip me some ruffies, and that might change.

Yea, but it's funny... my sister was like "oh my!" and i was like "that is hot"... then she was on my side, and she said that it was hot (the scene with Aaron and the other guy.) I think i'm turning her slowly into a gay man.

but i highly recommend that you watch latter days, it was cool to see a gay romantic movie; watch it with your sister... she looked at the mag, it can't be no worse then what she seen in there.
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I don't have to worry about too fucked up things in my mags.. ‘cause it's illegal in Oklahoma to show penetration.... Booo... that is why i had to get my porn in Vegas.

1/24/2005 10:21 PM  
Blogger Brian Smith said...

Oh Oh OH! The best part, hands down, was my sister and I watching the love scene and her asking me: "What is That!?!"

Oh god i was about to die laughing... cause it was his chest. Then it was his arm... i kept having to tell her what she was looking at... I was like "God Damn girl! You need to learn you 2001 parts...". i don't think she got the reference to the soap commercial...

1/24/2005 10:44 PM  

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