Bringing you down... One person at a time.

I went to Arkan-sass this last weekend, and boy was it a ride. To make a 3 hr there and back story short, me and the BF were 'discussing' the Anti-christ's dinner i wasn't invited to, but his 'look at me i'm straight and here is my GF' best friend was. Maybe it was because it was brokedick ORU's dinner and they didn't want a homosexual pointing out the shitty decor, but i wasn't on the guest list; until it was decided that no one of importance was there, so a second class citizen homosexual like myself, can grace the halls of a hotel, probably booked up for the night by high class hookers sleeping with the upstanding ORU alumni and guests. But i didn't get to go anyway, because i'm a super bitch; and proud.

When i'm as pissed off as i was then... my duty... nay! My Obligation is to make everyone know that i'm fucking pissed. So i wasn't really invited to the straight party of the year, but could have been if i was in a talking mood. But the 'surprise your not so faggy that you can't come now, because it isn't one of those anti-fag parties this time' phone call just upset-ed me more.

But before all of this i was given one option... be "The Shame^TM" either at his house, or at his friends house... i choose the latter... Oh... or just 'Go home'...

So what's a homo to do? Call his sister. So i called my sister. I told her how pissed i was, and she was like "you want me to come and get you?"... and you know what, i would have taken her up on that offer if the door to the place i was staying at wasn't locked by a deadbolt... Yes i was that pissed.

When it comes to people and places oppressing homosexuals, i get very angry. I didn't think it would effect me as much as it did, but now, as i type, i feel angry. Just thinking about it makes me angry, it's just not the way i want to spend my life. Fighting them isn't fun but makes me feel productive, but having to bow down to their rules... it's not acceptable. I've bowed down to those rules for 22 years of my life, way to much time i've wasted on people like them. It kinda makes me wonder if the last 2 years have been a waste.

I'm really going to have to do something big, and gay prideful soon, so i can feel better about where i am in my life... Isn't there something we fags do on Valentines day?... If not we should...

If not, i'll just see if there are any good drag shows in T-Town, and catch one...

Any who, me and the BF kissed and made up... not that i'm not still sore with the whole deal, but it was nothing he could control... I understand... but i also know i would have handled it very differently... but that is just me... Just like my Fortune Cookie said:

Your Principles Mean More To You Than Any Money Or Success

Sisters, you don't know how true that is.

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