Weird Ass Shit...

I've noticed some weird ass shit about myself and I decided to share it with you.

First I flinch whenever I’m about to be touched. I don't know why but when I see someone about to touch me, I think that they are about to hit me. Every time some one is about to touch me, and I flinch, they always ask me "what the hell is your problem", and the answer is always the same, "I though you were going to hit me".

Next thing I noticed is that I don't IM people, I always wait for them to IM me; even if I know they are waiting for me. Like I was called by someone saying to be online at a certain time, so we and a couple other people could chat; I waited until someone contacted me. I don't know why I did it then, but I usually don't because I keep thinking that they have better things to do then talk to my ass (plus I’m boring as hell, and I can never come up with anything to talk about, but I will talk about almost anything anyone brings up). However, once in a blue moon I will initiate the conversation, but saying that is rare is putting it mildly.

I also noticed that whenever I’m using a computer for development (i.e. Programming, HTML, Graphic Creation), i eat a lot of fruit. Especially Grapes and Pineapple; now that I think about it, that’s almost the only fruit I eat when using my computer. But whenever there is no Grapes or Pineapple left, I’ll settle for sunflower seeds.

Also I noticed that whenever I’m using my computer for things not related to development, I usually have something in my mouth. Like a pen or pencil; right now I have a little screwdriver in my mouth (lol, I need to take this out of my mouth).

Also I noticed that when I use the computer I always have my headphones on, even when I’m not listing to music. Right now, I have my headphones on, and no music (did have music though, until my computer crashed a few mins ago).

Another thing I noticed is that I sleep with a lot of shit, I don't know how I end up with stuff on my bed but I sleep with it anyways. Right now I have 5 books, 2 game cube games, 1 PC Game Jewel Case, 1 600ct box of Magic the Gathering Cards, 2 Floppy disks, A spindle of CDs, and a folder. Add in a dog and ferret once in a while, and that bed fills up fast. I need to clean it off, but all my computer stuff is within easy reach from my computer when it's on my bed, plus my desk is full.

Speaking of my desk, I noticed that I have a lot of shit on it too. I keep everything on my desk. Right now I have my computer, monitor, keyboard, mouse, digital camera, VCR, DVD player, a set of Rabbit ears (The antenna, I have an all in wonder so I can watch TV), printer, scanner, two huge CD storage things, More Magic The Gathering Card Boxes (3x, the long ones from the card shops), a couple spindles of CDs, books, my Game cube with 2 controllers, my HUB, a sword (I still haven’t mounted that on my wall yet), a little storage thing that isn't storing much of anything, alarm clock, lamp, and floppies and CDs scattered all over.

Finally I noticed that I freeze up when meeting new people, and it takes me, sometimes, years to warm up to them. There have been a few instances, when that is not true, but it's usually with people my own age. Like, this guy I meet when I attended Central Tech, I warmed up to him fast. I don't know why, I did, maybe it was because he was soooooo damn funny. Thinking about him and the crazy shit he did brings a smile to my face. See > :)

I guess that wasn't the final thing, I just noticed something else. I can never seem to commit to an emotion, though or feeling when I’m typing. Like I did above, 'I don't know why, I did, maybe it was because he was soooooo damn funny', Hell I know that I warmed up to him because he was funny. I don't know why (and this time it's for real) I don't just say it in the first place, instead of saying 'Maybe'.