Thanksgiving 04...
Well thanksgiving is fast approaching; and this year i have to make a decision. Should i leave up my pride flag or not.
Every year we have my dad's side of the family's thanksgiving dinner at my grandparents house, so no conflict there. However, my mom's side of the family comes over to our house. Usually everyone [the kids] hangs out in someone's bedroom, they usually come to my room for games and movies, and my sisters' room just to talk. The parents usually hang out in the dinning or living room, but they sometimes come into the bed rooms. So i really don't know what i should do. What if my parents don't know, i'd be shocking everyone. Eh, i don't want to take it down, just because of the symbolism.
I'm probably going to base a decision on what other people think i should do [I'm really bad at decision making], and if my sisters and my little sister's boyfriend is going to be there. they know, and they say they support me; but there has been talks of my little sister and her boyfriend not showing up this year [i really don't blame them].
Damn it, i hate the holidays, they make me feel lonely and plus i have to clean my room (which i need to do anyways, it's a huge mess).
But there is one major reason i want to keep it up, my uncle; if he is in fact gay, i'd like for him to know. So much crap, over a flag; god I'm pathetic.
posted by Brian Smith @ 3:51 AM
3 Comments:
I have a slight idea of how they will react, but if i learned anything is that people are full of surprises. As of now I'm leaning toward leaving it up, but i know me and it will be a last minute decision.
and I'm a big pussy too, but I'm working on that. Oh, that reminds me that I'm going to be doing that oral report in biz comm. Eh, i don't know how I'm going to get through that one, I'm a horrible speaker and plus it's an issue that is personal. (for all those who don't know, I'm doing my oral report over lack of gay rights in the workplace)
I am always all for being out and proud, but casually outing yourself at a big family gathering may cause more problems than are necessary. This may be very "un-gay" of me (haha) but spare yourself of all unnecessary drama.
I can tell I am getting old because I was about to start writing about respecting your parents by telling them first, so that they in turn are able to respect you, but we each have to do this in our own way. Hell, you should dye your hair in a rainbow mohawk if that is what you want to do!
Have a great thanksgiving!
Michelle
The more and more i think about what you said the more and more i feel like it might be a bad idea. But it would be a great relief to get this part over. My whole mother's side of the family is always dealing with some sort of major drama during the holidays; it would be a shame to disappoint. :-)
I don't know exactly what I’m going to do; either take it down, go all the way, or compromise. Maybe i could keep a couple things, like a couple magazines or a book or two. But i guess i have a few hours to decide.
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