The Other Side Of Me

This Blog is a documentation, a day-to-day account of my coming out process. This is here so people can read, and see where i've made mistakes and where i've made progress, so that during their coming out they can attempt to avoid or emulate those things. It is also here, to show the struggle me and many others have faced, when coming to terms with our sexuality.

5/07/2005

Singing in the Rain! I'm Singing in the Rain!

Really... Pathetic!

Today i've been told i'm from cute to pretty... DUDE, WTF? Where were these people a month ago? Ok, i guess one doesn't... well two... two doesn't really count. Since one was drunk and the other was a woman. But they all, and Johnnie, like my eyes. I've been asked weather they are color contacts or something... Nope, Naturally that blue... just not naturally that dilated (i had a couple 'sex on the beach'es). Let me tell you about one of the times... i was rubbing on Johnnie and this chick said, i'm sorry, but i can't help looking at your eyes, they are gorgeous. I said, thank you, and then Tippy (one of the drag performers) agreed then another guy wanted to see. Then later that night someone else said the same damn thing, except he said something else added on to that, i was a pretty bear.

I LOVE DRUNKS! They are going to make my ego uncontrollable!

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My Eye!

Jesus Christ That is Some Scary Shit!

Nine Inch Nails - Right Where It Belongs

See the animal in it's cage that you built
Are you sure what side you're on
Better not look him too closely in the eye
Are you sure what side of the glass you are on
See the safety of the life you have built
Everything where it belongs
Feel the hollowness inside of your heart
And it's all
Right where it belongs

What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems
What if all the world you think you know
Is an elaborate dream
And if you look at your reflection
Is it all you wanted to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks
Would you find yourself...
Find yourself afraid to see?

What if all the world's inside of your head
Just creations of your own
Your devils and your gods
All the living and the dead
And you really are alone
You can live in this illusion
You can choose to believe
You keep looking but you can't find the words
Are you hiding in the dreams?

What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems
What if all the world you use to know
Is an elaborate dream
And if you look at your reflection
Is it all you wanted to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks
Would you find yourself...
Find yourself afraid to see?

posted by Brian Smith @ 3:18 AM 

1 Comments:

Blogger Brian Smith said...

My sister has similar eyes, except hers has a bit more yellow... so me and my sister used to make fun of her and call her Pee Eyes. We said that it looked like someone took a piss in her eyes. Then we would just go up to her and push the top of her ears down and say "FUSH!".

5/09/2005 8:16 PM  

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