The Other Side Of Me

This Blog is a documentation, a day-to-day account of my coming out process. This is here so people can read, and see where i've made mistakes and where i've made progress, so that during their coming out they can attempt to avoid or emulate those things. It is also here, to show the struggle me and many others have faced, when coming to terms with our sexuality.

10/09/2004

I Kicked That Bitch In The Balls...

I went to my sisters right after the last thing I posted; I went up there to get my rainbow wristband. After retrieving the item, I headed toward town. That was the shortest ride to town ever; I was even going under the speed limit. I pulled into the wal-mart parking lot (that’s the biggest place in town, that’s opened to the public). I went in, there he was; the gay guy. I almost didn’t recognize him, he had gotten a hair cut. No knowing what to say, I just asked him if Kelly (yea, I used a name; so sue me) was there. Kelly is the girl that works at wal-mart I’ve told. She wasn’t, but I think he seen my wristband, I think it was just me but he seemed politer; I wonder if my sister really did tell horror stories about me to him. So I went into the electronics section, just to gather my thoughts. I wondered if he actually seen it, so I decided to pick up something and use his lane to check out. So I picked up some of those Pastel Mints and a Sprite (good combo, I’m such a dumb ass). I waited what seemed like an eternity for this woman who was ahead of me to check out. Finally I got to the register, I gave him my money and used my hand, the one with the wristband, to retrieve the change (I’m slick). I didn’t say anything to him about it, I hope he noticed; he would have to be blind not to. Then I went to Sonic, and got something to drink (yea, I know I bought a sprite, but I was hoping that another person I knew would come out and see it). Just before I was about to leave I seen my old high school principal, If I only seen him before he took off, I would have waved with my wristband hand.

Wearing that wristband was weird, I can exactly describe how it made me feel, except to say that I felt like I could have a heart attack at any moment. I really didn’t notice if anyone stared or anything, I was too caught up in the moment to care. No one said anything, but I didn’t give them time too either, I just whisked on by them. However, the carhop at sonic acted weird, and she was all like “have a nice day” *giggles like a little schoolgirl flirting*.

But I still feel like I could have a heart attack at any moment, that motherfucker is beating rapidly. Now I’m going to enjoy my mints and my sonic drink, and try to figure out a plan tomorrow (I think I’m going to do it then, I can’t do it on the 11th because of school). I might go to the Tulsa State Fair, to clear my head.

1 Comments:

Blogger Brian Smith said...

Thank you. I should of bought someting else other then mints and a sprite; he knows where i live and it's too far to travel for mints and a sprite. lol. I hope he remembered who i was, at least.

10/09/2004 10:09 PM  

Post a Comment

Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]

<< Home