God hates me this i know, 'cause the bible tells me so.

I swear... as soon as i become single all these older fags keep emailing me. They must have a network or something. Lets just say that my next BF is going to be my age... the closer to my age the better. Born on the same day, same year? We gettin' married. Ok, maybe not that close... but it would be eaiser to remeber his B-day and age; what am i talking about!?! I had to pause the other day to remember how old i was... never mind... maybe an easy b-day to remeber like 8-1-81... see just two 81's... and i was born in '81 so it's super easy.

I promise, i'm not fully retarded. Semi? maybe.

Anyway, no one has picked the correct answer to "Project e-Fag Hag". So i'll narrow it down a bit. He's close to my age; Give or take about 5 years; btw i'm 23, and i didn't even need to pause! Also he has a picture of himself posted, so that'll narrow it down, too.

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Anyway, i think i just fucked myself. Ok, this is my outline of what i'm going to do.

No looking for a new BF before i get a job [i said ME looking, if they happen to find me, then that will have a whole set of new rules]

No Job until after Oct. 12th

How i fucked myself is that i've always wanted to go with a BF to the State Fair. I've always seen guys with their girlfriends there, and was always jeloious. Fuckers! Anway, the State Fair ends [i think] on Oct. 13. So i'm going to have to wait another whole fucking year, to do something i wanted to do in High School. I know it's corny, but it always looked fun.

Also, i'm really getting into this new KMFDM CD. ULTRA HEAVY BEAT DELUX!

Watch you as you eat your own
Half truths mixed with lies
Defending what you think you know
Changing stories all the time
Talking til your face is blue
Tripping on your words
Righteous in your knowledge
But you haven't got a clue
Laughing as the web you weave
Tangles til you choke
We are here and still the same
It's you that has become the joke

We are the ones you love to hate
Sleaze makes you wet below
Aching for a taste
Nothing but the best for you
All your little fits and starts
Crumbs that satiate
Urban legend drama
Only serves to feed our fame
Feed our fame

Our celebrated legacy
No flimsy house of cards
Hero worship or disdain
We take you all
For what you are
Chitter chatter jabber
You're the pilot to our shark
We've toured these oceans long before
Our territory firmly marked

We are the ones you love to hate
Sleaze makes you wet below
Aching for a taste
Nothing but the best for you
All your little fits and starts
Crumbs that satiate
Only make us stronger
Only serve to feed our fame
Feed our fame

~ KMFDM - Feed Our Fame