Too Much Info?
Ok, for some reason or another i though "hay, talk about how big a freak you are".. and for some other reason, i thought that it would be a good ideeer.
(plus i needed an excuse to use a new function)
Anyway, I'm hideing it... No password, just a lil link you need to click to see it... That's it... just click the link below, it should work.
Ok, there are a few things, that... well how to put this... ummmm... ahhhh... mmmm... might make you go "Almight Gawd! WTF?".. :-p
Ok, maybe not, maybe so; no one cares! It's the internet!
I've a very... ummmmm, Unique, person... Special some might say. But that is nothing compared to what i was when i was a kid. Oh, gawd help me back then. I've changed a lot, because things change over time. So why not break out some of the few memories i have?
Ok, here it goes:
When i was a wee lad, we're talking ummm, i really don't remember, Somewhere before 8th grade but after 1st.... yea, big time span i know. Oh, well!
I used to have a sort of rape fanasasy. I think it's gone, i haven't had a desire to be raped for as long as i can clearly remember, so sorry rappiest. No forced Nookie from me.
:-(
Unless you ask nicely first!
But i don't know if you'd classified it as rape... It wasn't like that (in my mind) it was different, somehow. It was almost like a rescue of sorts. Take me away from this town to the 'world of the queers' where i can be free! Sorta like that. Of course i would have to give "it" up, but it wouldn't have been forced. It's even odd to me, thinking back at it.
There was this one instance where i remember wanting something simmilar. I forget where i was, it was somewhere public, busy... i want to say the Zoo or somewhere like that... a park or something? Doesn't matter i guess. But i seen some guy, Almost gave this (2-7)th grade girl a heart attack! I have no memory of what he looked like (except he had killer calfs and was a 20-something), but i know it was 'all good'; if i knew then what i know now, i'd be thinking "Micheal, take me to Neverland!"... But that has stuck with me, because i dwelled on it when i got home: sorta like "What would it be like" and such. I knew it was 'bad' but that didn't keep me from wondering.
Not so much now, i don't know if it was a phase, or that i suppressed it... or that i found out queers didn't have there underground tunnels where they live... who knows.
LMAO
But i am a very submissive person. I usually let people walk over me, i don't mind, it makes them feel better, whatever... except in rare instances, and they are very rare, you wronged me or said something on a day it shouldn't be said... then you'll get a bitch... and even rare'er instances, you'll get super bitch.... you have to do something pertty fucked up to get that... only one person has ever been on that list... and he was only there for like a week, then he was put on Reg Bitch list... A kid pulled a knife on my sister (a small pocket knife) he was only a grade below mine, and my sister is like 5 years behind me; so i let him know, that action isn't acceptable. I don't care even if he was just 'playing around'... after it was all done, he was scared of me for awhile, and apoligized to me (quite a few times) and my little sister (or at least i told him to).
What i said, if he did it again i would beat the shit out of him, that i would bring a 'real' knife and 'show him how scary that would be' and after that i would tell my dad, and he'd beat the shit out of him... I swear, for the rest of the year, he sat in the seat farthest away from me and my sister he possibly could. But pulling a knife on a bus and pointing it at my little sister, is unaccepable, expecially when it's moveing around adn you know how those fucking busses jerk around...
Ha! I don't even thing my sister knows about that... ummm... it was during P.E.
But i'm not a violent person... just talk big, ta' scare the shit out of peoples... but i would have kicked his ass if he did it agian... no doubt about that. I'd be making him wish i was kidnapped, rapped, and taken to the queers' secrete undergound town.
But i did have a knife that would have made him piss his pants... Simmilar to this (in size, not even close to design).
Ok, maybe not, maybe so; no one cares! It's the internet!
I've a very... ummmmm, Unique, person... Special some might say. But that is nothing compared to what i was when i was a kid. Oh, gawd help me back then. I've changed a lot, because things change over time. So why not break out some of the few memories i have?
Ok, here it goes:
When i was a wee lad, we're talking ummm, i really don't remember, Somewhere before 8th grade but after 1st.... yea, big time span i know. Oh, well!
I used to have a sort of rape fanasasy. I think it's gone, i haven't had a desire to be raped for as long as i can clearly remember, so sorry rappiest. No forced Nookie from me.
:-(
Unless you ask nicely first!
But i don't know if you'd classified it as rape... It wasn't like that (in my mind) it was different, somehow. It was almost like a rescue of sorts. Take me away from this town to the 'world of the queers' where i can be free! Sorta like that. Of course i would have to give "it" up, but it wouldn't have been forced. It's even odd to me, thinking back at it.
There was this one instance where i remember wanting something simmilar. I forget where i was, it was somewhere public, busy... i want to say the Zoo or somewhere like that... a park or something? Doesn't matter i guess. But i seen some guy, Almost gave this (2-7)th grade girl a heart attack! I have no memory of what he looked like (except he had killer calfs and was a 20-something), but i know it was 'all good'; if i knew then what i know now, i'd be thinking "Micheal, take me to Neverland!"... But that has stuck with me, because i dwelled on it when i got home: sorta like "What would it be like" and such. I knew it was 'bad' but that didn't keep me from wondering.
Not so much now, i don't know if it was a phase, or that i suppressed it... or that i found out queers didn't have there underground tunnels where they live... who knows.
LMAO
But i am a very submissive person. I usually let people walk over me, i don't mind, it makes them feel better, whatever... except in rare instances, and they are very rare, you wronged me or said something on a day it shouldn't be said... then you'll get a bitch... and even rare'er instances, you'll get super bitch.... you have to do something pertty fucked up to get that... only one person has ever been on that list... and he was only there for like a week, then he was put on Reg Bitch list... A kid pulled a knife on my sister (a small pocket knife) he was only a grade below mine, and my sister is like 5 years behind me; so i let him know, that action isn't acceptable. I don't care even if he was just 'playing around'... after it was all done, he was scared of me for awhile, and apoligized to me (quite a few times) and my little sister (or at least i told him to).
What i said, if he did it again i would beat the shit out of him, that i would bring a 'real' knife and 'show him how scary that would be' and after that i would tell my dad, and he'd beat the shit out of him... I swear, for the rest of the year, he sat in the seat farthest away from me and my sister he possibly could. But pulling a knife on a bus and pointing it at my little sister, is unaccepable, expecially when it's moveing around adn you know how those fucking busses jerk around...
Ha! I don't even thing my sister knows about that... ummm... it was during P.E.
But i'm not a violent person... just talk big, ta' scare the shit out of peoples... but i would have kicked his ass if he did it agian... no doubt about that. I'd be making him wish i was kidnapped, rapped, and taken to the queers' secrete undergound town.
But i did have a knife that would have made him piss his pants... Simmilar to this (in size, not even close to design).
Also i updated my photoblog: Life As Images... Yes, i know that isn't quite the title... but i'm going to change it to it, 'cus i like that one better.
posted by Brian Smith @ 1:20 AM
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