Hay Girlfriends, Its been awhile.

My computer is saying "Fuck you" to me. and i'm saying to it "Ya' need to be gettin' yo ass outta my house". So i'm still looking for a job. So far CompUSA is hiring... when it's closer to Christmas. Best Buy is having a job fair later turday, i'm going to attend. After those fizzle and disappear, i'm going to shoot myself in the head, but realize that i neither have a gun nor could i afford ammo for one. My suicide note will blame... uhhh... Mmmmmm... Canadians. Because i like that lil south park song. Then i'll take a huge shit.

Or i could just work in Mannford... or as i like to call it... Mannford.

:-P

but in all seriousness i'm having fun. My comp is a pile and CompUSA is hiring near Christmas. So maybe i can work though Christmas then be promptly fired because the 'Christmas rush' is over. But hay! It's money, isn't it?

There is, however, a job in Mannford; a manufacturing job. I'm like, thanks, but no thanks. I've already worked at a plant before... i hated ever minute of it. I'd much rather have a Tech job, so that if one day i want a better Tech job, i don't have a lot of non-tech related jobs on my resume. The job in Mannford is assembling medical supplies... or packaging medical supplies or some shit like that. I doubt they will hire me being a homosexual and all... because right after being handed 'The Agenda' you're promptly given AIDS (even though you can't GIVE AIDS only HIV) and they know that it's [gays are given AIDS] a fact because Fred Phelps said so.

Other things that happened this weekend?

Uhhhh i went to hell... Oooops, the Church right across the street from ORU; I get those mixed up. I lernt myself something new... i love Hitler. Really, i'm told that i do. 'bout to shave my head and shit, and join the neo-nazis. I hope one day they clone the great Führer and he kills all the homosexuals and Jews -- because i'm not-so jesus-tastic. But i do have to say this for the man, he did have one good idea. :-P

Church upseted me, because i knew they were full of... how can i put this nicely... SHIT. And everyone around me were gobbling it up. The worst part, was 'the healings' that went down (not there, but somewhere else, but they were telling everyone about the 'miracles'). Ok, i don't believe that shit for one iota of a second; i thought i'd never meet someone who did... but there i was in the middle of a bunch of 'believers'. I wanted to slit my wrists. It made me sad; there was a bunch of younger people believing this shit. My conceptions that is was only 2 old ladies funding the entire "Jesus Healings" was shattered. To think that in this day of age someone could believe that shit... mind boggling.

Lets go over what i believe, shall we? Drugs.

Hardcore, make your hair fall out, Killed 50 million lab rats in testing Drugs! They work.

There are not enough 'tom cruises' in the world that can convince me that all problems can't be solved by the right drug. First off, i don't think GOD or whoever would be... well basically killing you... just so he can not kill you. It's sounds retarded. Just like that Herbal shit... Ok, herbal shit might work -- but i doubt the people selling me the shit knows what they are doing --, i'll trust it over god-acation any day of the week; since most of our drugs are based on plants... just way-fucking-stronger... and i'm basically the antichrist who Looooooves Hitler and digs guys. I trust candy the crack smoking whore, more then i trust the church; that's sad, especially when they go on about not telling lies and shit like that.

Why did that upset me? Well i know someone who fell for that healing shit... and now she learnt that shit didn't work it's a lil too late for real drugs. So her ass is basically 6ft under any second now. Sad, i know, but don't fucking tell me it's bad for me to say that... tell the assholes who lie about that shit. Either it's the preacher that knows that the "healed" are actors on his payroll or the Herbal Healer that has seen others die under his supervision but keeps on that it works. I'm not letting Doctors off the hook either, they fail too, but they fail with years and years of science and research backing them up. And the kicker... her cancer was treatable. She didn't want the side-effects. So now she is god-only-knows where, sitting around waiting to die at a kinfolk's home. So when i say i don't trust the church, i mean i don't trust those motherfuckers; anyone who could do that, don't deserve trust. But it rakes in the cash.

What else?

Other then that, nothing much, just having a lot of fun with my Boyfriend, listening to my little sister fight with her Boyfriend, and hearing about my older sister hating her boyfriend.

Oh, and Rosa Parks Died... That Sucks... I thought she was long gone though... She lived to be 92. Her ass must have gotten on some serious meds.

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Linky: Faggoty ass faggot>>High noon is a'comin'

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OH! And i found my gODHEAD CD, 2000 years of Human Error. Which has one of my Fav Songs on it: Break You Down.

I've got a gun in my hand and I feel like a man
I'm the pope of my generation
I've gotta push myself over your goddamn walls
I don't listen to your condemnation

Can't you see the pain that you bring
Is only because of everything
That you wish to stop and bring to an end
But it only makes me hate you more

Careful what you wish for
It can only bring you down
Keep your spirit on the ground
Emptiness the only sound

I know what it takes to break you
And I'll kill everything that made you
(I know what it takes to break you down)

Take everything that you tried to teach me
It don't add up to a pile of shit
All the methods you used as you tried to reach me
They don't matter not a single bit

I'm alright inside, I'm just trying to hide
From all the propaganda you once choked me with
Keep your face away, keep your hands away
Don't want your fingers in and out of my life

I know what it takes to break you
(I know what it takes to break you down)
And I'll kill everything that made you
(I know what it takes to break you down)

I know what it takes to break you
And I'll kill everything that made you

I know what it takes to break you
(I know what it takes to break you down)
And I'll kill everything that made you
(I know what it takes to break you down

~gODHEAD - Break You Down

But Maybe gODHEAD's title Track is More Approate:

I thought you'd tell me the truth
But when you opened your mouth
Out came a family of flies

the book was already read
Could never help us from
Your conglomeration of lies

You probably beleive what you told me
A never ending cycle of greed
Pass it down to each generation
Another flock of sheep to mislead

Scratch me harder
Till I bleed
God the father
Spreads his seed

Liars,Liars
You sell it all to me
Liars,Liars
I'm what you'll never be

And it feels so good when you've
Sold another plot in the sky
Like your teacher before you
Really know how to sell your life

Scratch me harder
Till I bleed
God the father
Spreads his seed

Liars,Liars
You sell it all to me
Liars,Liars
I'm what you'll never be

Give me something
Something real
Everything I see is nothing I can feel
Give me something
Something real
Everything I see is nothing I can feel

Liars,Liars
You sell it all to me
Liars,Liars
I'm what you'll never be

~gODHEAD - 2000 Years Of Human Error