Via My Sister's House

I'm confused, i don't know why i want to come out to my little sister's boyfriend. i guess i want to get a straight male reaction. I really want to come out to him, i even came down here (I'm typing this at my older sister's house) to tell him; I truly don't know why, the more i think about it the more confused i get. I guess i don't want to be that lie that i've been all my life. I want to be me, but for some reason i won't allow myself the satisfaction.

I hate this closet, this closet is worse then hell. I hope that someday, hatred and intolerance will disappear, but that is a stupid dream from a dreamer. We, as humans, will never truly accept everyone; we should all be ashamed of ourselves, will hatred and intolerance be our legacy on this world? After the human race is gone, will the next creations look back at our history and determine that we died by our own hatred for each other and not by a natural disasters? Are we so blind that we cannot see that's where we're heading; Nukes, chemicals, and other weapons should be a clear sign that if we do not change we are going to cause our own extincion.

What's so important about me being gay? Is it causing anyone harm, is anyone effected, has anyones life changed because of it except my own? No. Then whats the problem? Is it making you uncomftorable? Well watching the paris hilton video made me uncomftorable, and i did what i should of, i payed no attention and left. i didn't make a scene, i didn't yell or scream, hold up signs, or use the bible in anyway. Is that just because I'm gay, that I'm socially less important, and i knew it, so thats why i didn't say anything? No. I am important, my options and beliefs are just as valuable then anyone else's, so why must i suffer? Why must millions suffer? If a revolution started today i would gladly join, even if i knew that i would certainly loose my life. It's the only cause that i feel that strongly about, because i've been on the battle field all my life; with myself.

Homo sapiens a dying species
Poor sick dumb numb feeding feces
Half-eaten starved beaten multiplying lying cheating
Lean mean unclean ammo for the gun-machine.
~ KMFDM

Stars & stripes
Learn how to fight
We come together by the dawn of the light
Oh so proudly we hail as the rockets red glare
Stars & stripes
~ KMFDM

Sin sex sodomy
Time to end this parody
Terror torture tyranny
The carcass of democracy
Power pills poverty
Victors rewrite history
Bullets bombs & bigotry
Brace yourself for world war three
~ KMFDM

Don't complicate yourself with the truth
~ KMFDM

Sorry for all the quotes, i'm angry.