He could do a lot better...

As You'ens know by now i have a Boyfriend; Jeremy. What you might not know, is that sometime in May he was mentioned in one of my posts:

Uhhhh... JESUS FUCKING CHRIST ON A GOD DAMN CRACKER!

Well, this wasn't the post i was going to do... but i can't help but do this one now... maybe the other in a few minutes...

Let me make this frank... after leaving Johnnie’s around 2:30 this morning... i came home to an email... The hottie that sent me an ice breaker, seen that i left clues all thought out my personal on Yahoo to find this site... well he found it today. Isn't that a Son-of-a-bitch?

God damn girls! I need to hop my ass over to Vegas right quick!

Ok, i'm going to have to tell him that i'm seeing someone i guess. EH! Some days i wish i could just be a whore! That isn't right! I'm going to throw a fit, and kick and scream, because it isn't fair... Why now? Why not in HS or my First Years at Collage!?!? WHY ALL AT ONCE! Someone is going to have to pay for this shit! PAY DEARLY!

God Damnit!

Well i guess it all worked out, so i guess no one is going to be 'paying dearly'.

Anywho, just updating you'ens. Uhhhh, it's not fair...

We're fighting constantly.

I say, "I love you more"... Then he 'claims' he loves me more. And yes, i put "'" around 'claims'. He knows good and well, that i love him more; my fortune cookie^* told me so. He lies to me all the time. He said, "Wanna go to albersons?"; and i'm all excited that i'm going to albersons. Never been to an Albersons; he pulls up... It's Resasors. Then he 'albersons teased' me again; It's was 'Alberson' this time... the 's' was clearly not lit up. ;-p

But seriously; i've fallen. Lets just say that he could hurt me like no other person could (insert poose joke here). I'm hoping that he doesn't, but that's up to him. Lets just say that my yar-hoo mail has a folder just for him... now that's nerd love... Also i tease him...

I poke fun at a former lover of his, and also him in the process; HERB... OMG! Gotta love that; HERB. I just wanna say Herb kickin' it on the mic; for some damn reason. Anywho, i keep saying that he still has a thing for 'herb'; and he keeps denying it... denying a lil too feverishly if you ask me... i might have stumbled upon the truth like in that one movie... were the guy keeps making up shit, then said something that happens to be true and then is being chased by people that want to kill him... WTF is that movie called? I never watched it, just seen previews... Anywho, if you see me crying you know he wanted some 'herbal healing' :-p (he reads, so that's another jab at him... Hahaha, still love you though, i'd just have to kill herb.)

He also tells me that i'm 'hot'... and i have to point out that his A) Glasses are not on B) The Lights are Off C) He must have something in his eye or D) he's clearly blind/retarded. but it's nice to hear. I find him very cute, but he disagrees with me... So I'm going for D. He's very nice, and i can't put my finger on it, but there is just something about him. Like i said before, i've never told my Ex that i 'loved him'; but with Jeremy i can say it freely and without doubt.

I think that once i said that i was jealous of my little sister; how she met a good guy, they both liked each other, and how she can honestly say 'i love you' to him; now i find that my jealously was righteous. Nothing feels better then waking up, and him being right next to me. I wish i could have that everyday, but until that day comes, i'll have to be more then happy with the handful of days that i can.

He's always telling me that i could do better or something along those lines... Uhhh, girls, he got that backwards. I dunno why he has an Ex, it doesn't seem like it would be possible. Even my little sister likes him (or at least i think she does)... that's a hard task to do. Impossible some may say. But he told me that a bunch of homos work at Direct TV... and i put in an application; Jokingly (or at least i hope so) he said that i was going to find someone else and leave him... not a chance in hell. Lets just say, if someone was to 'hit' on me (doubt it) it would be no problem for me to tell a bitch she (the gay version of she) is barking up the wrong tree. At this moment in time, i think i've removed all 'online personal' ads... I'll have to check my email folder that holds all the shit i've ever signed up for, but i think i've gotten rid of them all... except a few that won't let me, but lets me hide my shit... so i hid myself. I don't need anyone else. (if you ever happen upon me on a personals site, A) no and B) tell me so i can get rid of it. Thxs.)

Anywho, this gal is now taken; and hopes to be taken for a long, long time. Ya' know, until herb comes back to Oklahoma and takes Jeremy away from me. :-p

I love you, Jeremy... just more then you love me.

I hear a song,
Drifting on the horizon
The melody is so sweet, so sweet
Who composed the tune?
It lifts my heart higher
I sit down to retire
And hear what it has to say

Love is here,
I don't wanna lose it no
The tune it was so inspiring,
It kept my body rising,
Absorption taking place
The melody so lovely,
The tune it was so subtle
The world's a wonderful place

I see him now,
The clouds begin to disperse
To reveal a wonderful presence,
A presence full of love
He is so lovely,
Standing there looking after me
Seeing just how i feel,
The presence of love itself

~ Des'ree - Love is Here

Oh, i found my Des'ree CD! Woo... only need to find my Garbage Ver 2.0, Marcy Playground, Marilyn Manson Smells like Children and Fear Factory Archetype cd's i'll have all the ones that i'm missing that weren't stolen.

* Cookie said: You have the ability to sense and know higher truth.