The Other Side Of Me

This Blog is a documentation, a day-to-day account of my coming out process. This is here so people can read, and see where i've made mistakes and where i've made progress, so that during their coming out they can attempt to avoid or emulate those things. It is also here, to show the struggle me and many others have faced, when coming to terms with our sexuality.

4/12/2005

Running behind...

All day today i've been late. I don't know what that is all about. This morning i was late waking up, so i ran out of the house with my hair all fucked. Got to school, late, but since my File Struct Teacher is 30 mins late everyday (seriously, no joke, 30 mins late everyday; last semester he was the same way; 30 mins, you can set a clock by him; just a 30 min late clock.) but i still was 'late' i went and ran to print something off, and was more late then his regular lateness. Then i was almost late for my Sci-fi class, since i wasn't keeping watch on the clock. I actually got to the movie on time, but 5 more mins i would have been late. Then i got home later then what i usually do when we have a movie... damn. I've been running all around here trying to get to where i need to be on time; i even had to speed to get to school before our teacher came to class. Then to top it off, i sleep on my hand. My wrist is now hurting, 'cause i slept on it in the 'limp wrist' position. Really, how queer am i, that i even have a limp wrist sleeping?

Speaking of limp wrists, that brings back a memory. I remember in grade school, being terrified of 'gay mannerisms'; Especially the Limp Wrist, because, honey, my wrist was limp as a wet noodle. I remember one day realizing it, you would have thought i've done the most terrible thing in the world. I was so terrified that someone had seen it, and for days after that i kept tabs on my wrist. Even the slightest hint of flimsiness i would put my hands behind my back, until it eventually went away. But lately i've noticed it coming back, especially when i'm driving; if anyone sees or says anything about it i will be like "Poof, i'm a fairy".

Oh and i think two guys from the GLBT center came to the movie. I hadn't seen them, but just the way they walked and talked together made me think "Couple". Then they said something about me, "you think he's?"; "could be."; i was wearing a pink shirt. I hope that is what they were saying. But they might have came from there, since i did put a poster for the movies at the GLBT center.

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Blogger Brian Smith said...

There is this guy from the center that has this lil gay thing he puts at the end off all his sentences when he's is stating something obvious... i want it! It's like this half-laugh. i Love it! I've been practicing... :)

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I have gone boy crazy... off the charts!

Me too, i like keep thinking... "god i'm going to be the biggest whore this side of... *gets distracted* Oh my god he is hot". I like to think of myself, as entering into a 16 y.o. girl phase. All i need is one of those phones that light up neon when off the hook, bubble gum, and long hair. So i can lay on my bed, have my legs in the air, twirling my hair, talking to a hottie; like blossom (WTF? Really, i have no idea where that actually came from, or how i remember blossom). Then after i catch a man, i will bust out the notebook and write my first name with his last... with hearts.

But what is sad is that i found a guy that i think is cute, and he has sent me a 'wink' on one of those internet personals, but i have no money to send him my email address... nor do i have my Debt card anymore. :(

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The Gay bar is awesome! I think i might keep going back every Friday or whenever i'm in Tulsa at Night. But is it a Tyranny restaurant or Drag? I only know of one transsexual, he/she is really nice. Drag Queens... Well i've seen them, not really got to know any of them; Or at least i don't think so. But Drag Queens are very entertaining...

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But that hottie at the bar... can touch me any time.

Well maybe i'm not such a whore after all... let me say that again...

But that hottie at the bar... can touch me any where he wants.

better... :)

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