The Other Side Of Me

This Blog is a documentation, a day-to-day account of my coming out process. This is here so people can read, and see where i've made mistakes and where i've made progress, so that during their coming out they can attempt to avoid or emulate those things. It is also here, to show the struggle me and many others have faced, when coming to terms with our sexuality.

4/14/2005

Why am i so badass?

Is it due to the homosexuality? I wonder, but i'm feeling really good, and have declared that i'm the badest-ass badass of them all! It's only natural that it would be me, since everyone pales in comparison. I have no idea where this streak of goodwill towards me came from, but i think it has something to do with me listing to Marilyn Manson again; and using Winamp again. Or it could be due to that hottie that sent me an ice-breaker on yahoo's personals... not that i get to meet him or anything, since i have no cash nor a debt/credit card if i did, but just that it made my day... but what it weird is that he sent it a long time ago, i just forgot about it, then i seen it just a couple days ago... I'm so great. Then i got to flex my skills at being silly, and have been silly all day long! I bet i'm bi-polar or something, but i'd be the best bi-polar person in the history of bi-polarness!

But school is drawing near a end for this semester, and i get to make a decision... i hate decisions. I usually feel indifferent about them. This time i get to choose either: Keep going to school, or try getting a job. So far i'm thinking Job, Fuck school! I really would like to move out with my fabulous self, and get something near or in Tulsa, so i don't have to drive my badass ass around. Then if i get myself in to a grove, i can start taking one or two classes while working. But i would really like to move on up, to that high-rise in the sky; like the Jefferson’s!

1 Comments:

Blogger Brian Smith said...

I haven't seen those shows in ages...
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I'm retarded too! When coming home from school one of the guys that carpools with me was saying some shit like he doesn't like Metalica anymore or something... and i said something about him pledging his loyalty to them, and that he still loves them. He said something about he hasn't even bought a Metalica cd in 4 years or something, and i just blurted (being retarded) "You weren't even born 4 years ago!". It's stupid shit like that, especially when i talk about his mom. I mean damn, i'm gay and all, but i talk about his mom and me in so many sexual situations... It pisses him off, so it's something i have to do. I had to drop him off at his house today, and when he got out of my car, before he shut the door, i told him: "Tell your mom, 'kisses', for me." And that was tame, i usually call her a slut or something, and that she 'pops her pussy on the pole' like in a rap song i heard once. Oh, and at tech, we use to keep asking him, "do you ever wonder if your mom gave your dad a blowjob before she kissed you goodnight when you were a kid?"

Oh, and yesterday, someone said that the lights weren't on at his house, so i asked, "How will i know which window to crawl though to have sex with your mom?" I think that pissed him off... and put a smile on my face.

4/14/2005 10:58 PM  

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