The Other Side Of Me

This Blog is a documentation, a day-to-day account of my coming out process. This is here so people can read, and see where i've made mistakes and where i've made progress, so that during their coming out they can attempt to avoid or emulate those things. It is also here, to show the struggle me and many others have faced, when coming to terms with our sexuality.

9/25/2005

Where did the 23rd & 24th go?

Oh fucking well... The 23-24th was depressing, so i'm glad that motherfucker is gone...

I was going on how i was pissy, and then ate a hamburger and was no longer pissy... Oh, and my world was ending and such... The basics. and i said something cute after i ate the hamburger and my world was once more tolerable:

I guess my world didn't end... But that fucking cow's did.

That's cute, PETA should use that for something... But i claim a creative commons on that, so fuck you PETA... Dead cows are Yummy.

Also i mentioned a new feature on my sidebar... RECENT COMMENTS! Wooo Hooo! Don't laugh! It wasn't that easy... Blogger wanted me to do it there way... I was like fuck that! Your Way sucks. They wanted the comments to be listed by Post then Date... I wanted them to be listed by Date only! It makes more sence that way. And they also wanted you to list every fucking comment on your index page... JESUS CHIRST! Some sites that use that code and have a lot of comments should be shutdown... because that is going to blow up someone's PC!

Mine only list the last 5 comments on the index page... i can't make it search for the actual last 5 comments, because blogger doesn't 'play dat'... But most new comments come from post from the index page... very few, maybe 2 or 3 have came from a post in the archives... and if your searching for the archives it's down below... i moved it to the bottom just above where to donate and the blogger button... and of course the counter. So it's not missing... still say it looks like a butt-plug... well... more like one of those thing on Zelda... Oh, well.

What else...? I guess that's it. Oh, and i've emailed that one guy... like i said... but god only knows if blogger is going to keep it... He's a cutie...

Anywho, love 'ya

-kisses

OH! P.S.

There was a Javascripting Error... My bad... It's been there for awhile... You shouldn't have noticed it, unless you opened one of those HUSH thingies... The problem was that i never "Closed" the window... so it kept trying to load something in it... and if you were to click on the link again it would just duplicate what was already in the window... I know it's not a big deal... but it slipped past me. It is fixed... and now my site should run smoothly...

2 errors i've found with this page... WOOOO HOOO! Girls i'm learning!

2 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am glad you went ahead and e-mailed the guy you were wanting to talk to. It is worse to agonize over what could have been, than to actually just go ahead and find out what will be.
I never could drown deppresion, it just makes it worse. It would make me really depressed, cynical, and hate whoever i was around. What a bitch, that i am not usually a happy drunk.
Anyway, ;) good for you.

9/25/2005 4:33 PM  
Blogger Brian Smith said...

So am i... we talked while i drove home from Sapulpa... My mom is going to kill me when she sees the bill; i'll just have to tell her that's her fault for having a shitty plan; then be her slave.

Oh, well... it was worth the slavery. :-D

Yea, i get depressed when i see the answer... but can't do anything about it. I'm too cautious, i guess. I approach everything like it's going to be an utter failure. So that needs to change... take a few more risks i guess. It's not like anything i've done has really failed as badly as i would imagine... but it's just an automatic thing.

And no boozing it up when depressed... If it's one thing i got going for me is self-control... well when it comes to those things... But i refuse to drink when depressed... i have drank when nervous (only once)... but never depressed. I think if i were to drink and be depressed it wouldn't be a very good me... I think if i were to, it would be a bitch... very few people have seen me be 'The Bitch', for good reason; i'd have to be depressed and someone would have to do something fucked up to me... Add alcohol to that... god only knows... i just know it isn't good. Probably make baby Jesus cry.

good for you.

Thanks

9/25/2005 7:31 PM  

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