The Other Side Of Me

This Blog is a documentation, a day-to-day account of my coming out process. This is here so people can read, and see where i've made mistakes and where i've made progress, so that during their coming out they can attempt to avoid or emulate those things. It is also here, to show the struggle me and many others have faced, when coming to terms with our sexuality.

7/08/2005

I Don't Like The Drugs But The Drugs Like Me.

DAMN! These 'roids work! A few hours after taking them, i could eat smaller food. Now i can eat whatever. I still have 3 pills left to take; 2 today and 1 tomorrow. Yea, i went 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 on the pills; five on the first day and so on.

My throat is doing ok, a lil sore, and just barely swollen; but my side is hurting. I'm still tired, but i haven't gone to sleep since like 4 or 5 pm. I need to the doc said i need to anyways. I really want to get out of this house; i've been sleeping all this time, and i'm still tired, but i want to go somewhere. I'm going to see if i can make it to the Movie Night at the GLBT Center. Also i need to think of a creative usage for that last Levaquin pill.

Ok, so i've told you that i've been up for awhile. What was i doing? Muhhahahhahaha you'll see later [Monday, hopefully]!

Also i found my Slipknot Sweatband. My little sister had it. Oh! My older sister came by sometime... i know that is sad, i have no idea when she came over... i could have been a week ago - i have no clue. All i know is that she gave back a bunch of crap that belongs to me and my sister. I'm still missing shit, so is my sister. I want my Scary Movie DVD and my Garbage CD! And my sister probably wants that wallet that was in the purse that she brought.

Eh, i need to get to bed, i'm tired and i'm going to try to wake up. I just hope my side stops hurting.

Also! I'm going to try to get at least one post if not more a week now. I've been busy at Johnnies and since i've been home i've been Mono-stricken. After this Mono shit clears up, i'm going to have to find my ass a job, and buy a cheap ass computer... All it needs to be able to do is access a Wi-Fi Router and Run Word [Open Office], Photoshop, and Media Player. I would like one of those small ass Sony Vaio's.


I don't like the drugs but the drugs like me
I don't like the drugs, the drugs, the drugs

Norm life baby
we're white and oh so hetero and our sex is missionary.
Norm life baby
we're quitters and we're sober our confessions will be televised.

You and I are underdosed and we're ready to fall
Raised to be stupid, taught to be nothing at all
[We're taught to be nothing at all]

I don't like the drugs but the drugs like me
I don't like the drugs, the drugs, the drugs

Norm life baby
our god is white and unforgiving we're piss tested and we're praying.
Norm life baby
I'm just a sample of a soul made to look just like a human being.

Norm life baby
we're rehabbed and we're ready dor our 15 minutes of shame.
Norm life baby
we're talkshown and we're poiting just like christians at a suicide.

You and I are underdosed and we're ready to fall
Raised to be stupid, taught to be nothing at all
[We're taught to be nothing at all]

I don't like the drugs but the drugs like me
I don't like the drugs, the drugs, the drugs

~ Marilyn Manson

4 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Cheap-ass sony viao? HAR! IF you find one, tell me! I paid 2600 for the ultra-slim vaio I'm using now...just make sure you get a full install of the windows, that fake Home Ed. blows the things up.

7/08/2005 10:29 AM  
Blogger Brian Smith said...

I seen a Viao for like $1999 once, at comp-usa, a year - year and a half? ago. It was like a 1ghz something or another. I wanted it just because of how tiny that thing was. I would rather have the smaller laptop, i've had the big huge one and never took it anywhere because of how big it was... it was a waste of money. I would like to steal my older sister's IBook it's nice and small, but old.

7/08/2005 10:54 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You need to hit the office depot/max up...I saw a few there turday selling for 500-1000. They were the compaqs or whatever. Still cheap though, and a quick fix! Obviously they weren't super thin like the sony shit (compaqs are thick as a pair retard glasses).

7/08/2005 11:49 PM  
Blogger Brian Smith said...

The one i got was thick and shittly made. It also got hotter then a son-of-a-bitch real fast.

I gave about $1000-$1300

I can't remember, i think it was $1300 after everything was said and done.

I'll never buy another comp from Buy.com! Their repair people suck ass! I sent in my laptop to be fixed, they just unplugged the part that was fucked [the fan] and sent it back. I was like a retard sitting there thinking that the new fan was really quiet... until it showed the overheating, on screen warning.

7/09/2005 11:21 PM  

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