100th Post… and this blog is still shitty.

Well it’s my 100th post… congrats to me.

Lets walk down memory lane… and for those who are just joining us, a lesson that my shit hasn’t gotten any better over time and probably never will. Let begin, shall we.

First post was right after I took the first step in contacting someone else, telling them I was gay. It was the first time ever, online and offline, that I had told anyone that I was gay. Still haven’t gotten a response to that e-mail, but that doesn’t matter, it made me want to be out even more. I know it seems sad that I was even in the closet online, but I was, that is how far my paranoia went back then (back then! lol.. it was only a couple months ago, but I’ve grown a lot since then) .

After the first post, that was suppose to be just a one time deal to get stuff off my chest, I decided that it felt too good when I was sharing so I decided to try to update the blog regularly; I never though I would post something almost everyday. So I decided the next post should be more about me and who I was, but it wasn’t much of anything. Over time I kept letting more info about me out, like my real name, which city I lived at, my contact information, and recently my picture.

Many a post have been…. Well… uh… posted, some were funny like the ones about Ricky Lake, My cat, my ferret and dog, and FOX trying to out me. Some have been pretty tough to post like, stuff about the closet, about lies I’ve told, oh yea did I forget to mention about the closet? I’ve even told people about my attraction to some famous people like Dave Attell, Sean Astin, and Frank Nicotero. Some of the other posts have been filled with hatred to those who would oppress me and other people like me; like Pat Robertson, Fred Phelps and other assholes. And some have continued what me second post started and given you a little look of where I’m coming from. But the most important post is the ones that show me that I can accomplish, though with great difficulty, what I want to accomplish; like when I came out to my sisters and my teacher.

All-in-all blogger has been a invaluable tool to me, I’m quite shy in real life, but for some reason I’m more at ease online. So here's to 100 more posts, hopefully someone will still be reading it…

Before I go, let me thank those who do read this… your comments, e-mails and IMs really make me feel better, and I owe each and everyone of you a heart felt thanks, so thank you all. I hope that someday I can repay all the help you given me.